Thursday, October 28, 2010

12 months today

This time 12 months ago, I was lying on a really uncomfortable hospital bed, waiting to be wheeled to surgery. I was having a THR done. Was something that I had been prepared for as long as I remember, that this day would come. So I was lying there thinking about how this was going to change my life, no more crutches, no more painkillers, and being unable to drive, in case I fell asleep. But the biggest thing was the thought of being able to get my own socks, shoes and pants on. I wouldn't need to ask DH, or worse still the kids anymore

And in that 12 months, I've made a complete transformation, I am no longer the person I was. With having the op and the lead up to it, I changed my life. Not only can I say that I can now put my own socks and shoes on, but I can also cut my own toenails, I have zero pain. I can go to gym and do a back to back workout, and be able to walk the next day, and not have to dose up on pain relief.

I've also made a mental and emotional change too. I've got rid of all the negative people and things that were bringing me down, out of my life. I have discovered a whole new support network, who have been there for me throughout this whole journey. With no conditions, or no games or negativity that I previously had to deal with. I was diagnosed with depression earlier this year, but through hard work, I have managed to get off meds now. And I have never felt better in my life.

I went back to work and study about 3 months ago. Went to put in a resume for some casual work, walked out with a traineeship, and a great job, that I'm loving. And will have the opportunity to go onto more study and more qualifications if I want too.

So in a short 12 months, my life has completely changed, so much for the better. I can't believe how much that has happened, and how much I've achieved. So in general life is just fan-bloody-tastic right now. I have great family, great friends and just a great life.

Am so glad, that I took that first scary step of standing up and telling people I was coping with the hip anymore and that finally after 32 years, it was time to do something about it.



Wednesday, October 27, 2010

Time to turn things around

Well after a good start to the 12 WBT, I have totally fallen off the wagon, no gym, no eating right, just fallen into a heap in general. But after shopping for new clothes today, have realised that I really need to get real and get this transformation happening. Tomorrow is 12 months since I've had my hip done, so that excuse is gone, the excuse of enough time is gone, as really I have plenty. Especially with having a really supportive husband, who will pick up the pieces at home for me, while I'm at gym. So that's it, no more excuses. Have done up a whole weeks menu plan for breakfast, lunch and dinner. Going to sit down later tonight after work, and sort out a gym routine, and that's it no looking back anymore, only forward.

Have come to the realisation though, that 'challenges', diets etc just don't work for me. I need to concentrate more on just eating healthy, exercising and just enjoying life. Not allow myself to get hung up on what I'm eating next, how many calories has it got, have I had enough protein. Cos you know what, at the end of the day, it will all balance out. So I am only menu planning, to take the hard work out during the week with work and school, and trying to figure out what to have for meals. But I'm not going to get worried about the rest of it. I still want to enjoy life. And if it means having one creamy pasta dish for a lunch date, not a biggie, just eat lighter meals for the rest of the day. I just need to learn to balance it all.

So here's to the new me!!!!!!!!