Mixed emotions

Should be in bed sleeping, but doing nothing other than tossing and turning. I have just come off 3 night's, which doesn't help. But I just can't get the poor people of QLD battling the floods at the moment. It is just so devastating. I'm getting a care package together tomorrow to send to a family. Just some toiletries and cleaning products, just feels like I should be doing more though.

If anyone else is interested join here Care packages for QLD flood victims and do what you can to help. So tonight my thoughts and prayers are with those who have lost property, lives and are just struggling through this tragedy.

On the flip side I'm having a great week. Got to RPM last night, of course first night back in a few months and I had to get my favourite instructor. What's wrong with this you ask, without even trying she pushes you to the point of wanting to throw up. Which is a good thing. But after doing 2 nights, having a 3rd one that night, I needed my legs to be working. Luckily it was a fairly quiet night, still busy, just not as much running around as usual.


Food is alright, not 100%, probably around 98%. Had about 6 smarties this afternoon, didn't follow the plan entirely yesterday and water was down a little today. Was going to go to Pump tonight, but was just so tired. Will do an hour of cardio at gym tomorrow instead. Ben commented today that I'm starting to look thinner. He can see it in my face. Which is normally the first place I lose the weight. So things are going really well at the moment. Falling into place.

Was going to post my weekly menu, just haven't got to it. Instead will do today's.

Breakfast: protein shake, this is after work.

Lunch: Ryvitas (4), with cottage cheese and tuna

Dinner: Roast lamb, with roast potato, carrots, beans, broccoli, corn, cauliflower and peas

Snacks: fruit and yoghurt.


Okay should really think about going to bed, otherwise my body clock will be all out of whack tomorrow. And I have 2 morning shifts coming up, which will probably kill me. Think it will be a struggle getting up at 5.30 in the morning.

Take care

Mel

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New Year, New Me

Finally after 12 months of I'm going to do this, my head is now in the right place and I really am going to do this. So signed up for a 12 week challenge. Gone are the diets, and now just getting down to some good old fashioned healthy eating and exercise. I'm sick of feeling like I'm limiting myself to what I want to eat due to not enough calories for the day. So I'm going to simply eat 3 meals a day, with a snack between them all. Going to stick to healthy food. But not beat myself up if I have a treat either.

So back to gym on Monday, classes are the way to go for me, for the moment anyway. Just can't get the motivation up to do it on my own. So will be doing a combination of Pump, RPM and body balance once a week. With now doing night shifts, will do a simple walk for the days that gym just doesn't suit.

Had a really good Christmas, nice and relaxing. Got a new ring from Ben, and a nurses watch as well. So feel real professional now lol. Kids got me some really nice bath pampering sets. Haven't had a chance to really use them yet though. New Year's I worked night duty, so really quiet one for me!


Must go finish off the next week's meal plan. Will post tomorrow.

Take care

Mel

Day off...............................what's that??????

Today was going to be my day off. Instead I finally dragged myself to gym and did a Pump class. My legs, chest and shoulders are really not liking me at the moment. Told them just to suck it up though!!!! Then I caught up with a g/f for brunch afterwards. And now I'm going out Saturday night with her to an 80's Prom night. So of course had to go shopping as well. So got a short red skirt, funky top and a real classy HSM handbag to go with it. Looking forward to it, haven't been out for ages. So will be nice to get out for a few hours and just enjoy a few drinks and lots of dancing. And now I've been called into work for this afternoon, which is cool. I'm actually starting to miss not going if I have a few days off. Time to start thinking about shifts though, only 2 more weeks of school, and then I'll be qualified!!!!!!!!

Healthy living is going okay too. Just had the most beautiful vegi burger while out. Need to get the recipe, won't hurt the family to start eating a little more vegetarian. I'm glad now that I cooked up some cannelloni on Sunday, will pull that out for tea at work tonight now. Much better than the usual bikkies and coffee I'd be having.

Well must get stuck into this housework if I'm to be at work in a couple of hours!!

Mel

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Emotional Eating

The bitch I like to call emotional eating, is fighting to break free today. But I will be strong, and won't give in to her demands. Hard though, sitting here, wondering why I'm even bothering trying to become healthier. Hubby seems to be missing a pack of potato chips. I haven't touched them, didn't even know he had them actually. But of course because a 5 and 7 year old are denying it, so it must have been me. So if I do the right thing, I still get accused for doing the wrong thing. So tempting to just do the wrong thing, not worry about my health, as I don't seem to get any credit for doing a good job.

So needless to say, today has been tough. It hasn't been terrible, but it hasn't been great either. Was going to get to RPM tonight, after waking with a really sore throat, and nearly falling asleep throughout class during the day, didn't think it would be a great idea. Tomorrow will go for a walk when I get home from school though. Start with baby steps.

 Just having some roasted capsicum and tomato soup tonight, don't feel like much else. Already made up a garlic, ginger and chicken stir-fry for lunch tomorrow and will think about tea in the morning. Breakfast will be my all new favourite recipe. Protein powder, mixed with a cup of skim milk, handful of berries, or a banana and 1/4 cup of oats, whiz up in blender. Tastes sensational too, almost like porridge, but much tastier.

Okay time for a green tea, and fight off this bitch ;-)

Mel

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Sick of being a gunna

I'm sure we all know one of these in our lives. A 'gunna', gunna do so many different things, but never happens. Well I'm tired of being that person in my friends life's, so it's about time they found someone different. I've gotten real this week, got some great advice of a very special person in my life. Someone who understands the struggle of weight loss and food addiction, someone who has lost 50kg of their own, and is now a body builder and an awesome motivation.

So diet has been cleaned up, still had a couple of small things, but nothing major. And nothing that makes me just want to keep going with the binging and not stop. Next week I will start focusing on the exercise. As my now mentor told me, weight loss is 80% and 20% exercise, get your diet  under control, you'll get your life under control.

Tomorrow would normally be a really bad day for me. At TAFE all day, and then work 4.30- 9. I'm organised tonight though. I've made up a huge double batch of chicken stirfry, which I've eaten for tea, and got plenty for lunch tomorrow. I've also cooked up a small rolled roast lamb. In the morning I'll do a salad up throw in a handful of the lamb and there's tea done. Better than the KFC for lunch and nothing or just chocolate biscuits for tea, with lots of coffee.

Have also discovered a new addiction. A slice of lime or lemon in my drink bottle. Makes drinking the water so much easier and enjoyable.

Okay better go and get snuggles of hubby.

Mel

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12 months today

This time 12 months ago, I was lying on a really uncomfortable hospital bed, waiting to be wheeled to surgery. I was having a THR done. Was something that I had been prepared for as long as I remember, that this day would come. So I was lying there thinking about how this was going to change my life, no more crutches, no more painkillers, and being unable to drive, in case I fell asleep. But the biggest thing was the thought of being able to get my own socks, shoes and pants on. I wouldn't need to ask DH, or worse still the kids anymore


And in that 12 months, I've made a complete transformation, I am no longer the person I was. With having the op and the lead up to it, I changed my life. Not only can I say that I can now put my own socks and shoes on, but I can also cut my own toenails, I have zero pain. I can go to gym and do a back to back workout, and be able to walk the next day, and not have to dose up on pain relief.

I've also made a mental and emotional change too. I've got rid of all the negative people and things that were bringing me down, out of my life. I have discovered a whole new support network, who have been there for me throughout this whole journey. With no conditions, or no games or negativity that I previously had to deal with. I was diagnosed with depression earlier this year, but through hard work, I have managed to get off meds now. And I have never felt better in my life.

I went back to work and study about 3 months ago. Went to put in a resume for some casual work, walked out with a traineeship, and a great job, that I'm loving. And will have the opportunity to go onto more study and more qualifications if I want too.


So in a short 12 months, my life has completely changed, so much for the better. I can't believe how much that has happened, and how much I've achieved. So in general life is just fan-bloody-tastic right now. I have great family, great friends and just a great life.

Am so glad, that I took that first scary step of standing up and telling people I was coping with the hip anymore and that finally after 32 years, it was time to do something about it.

Mel

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Time to turn things around

Well after a good start to the 12 WBT, I have totally fallen off the wagon, no gym, no eating right, just fallen into a heap in general. But after shopping for new clothes today, have realised that I really need to get real and get this transformation happening. Tomorrow is 12 months since I've had my hip done, so that excuse is gone, the excuse of enough time is gone, as really I have plenty. Especially with having a really supportive husband, who will pick up the pieces at home for me, while I'm at gym. So that's it, no more excuses. Have done up a whole weeks menu plan for breakfast, lunch and dinner. Going to sit down later tonight after work, and sort out a gym routine, and that's it no looking back anymore, only forward.

Have come to the realisation though, that 'challenges', diets etc just don't work for me. I need to concentrate more on just eating healthy, exercising and just enjoying life. Not allow myself to get hung up on what I'm eating next, how many calories has it got, have I had enough protein. Cos you know what, at the end of the day, it will all balance out. So I am only menu planning, to take the hard work out during the week with work and school, and trying to figure out what to have for meals. But I'm not going to get worried about the rest of it. I still want to enjoy life. And if it means having one creamy pasta dish for a lunch date, not a biggie, just eat lighter meals for the rest of the day. I just need to learn to balance it all.

So here's to the new me!!!!!!!!

Mel

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