12 months today

This time 12 months ago, I was lying on a really uncomfortable hospital bed, waiting to be wheeled to surgery. I was having a THR done. Was something that I had been prepared for as long as I remember, that this day would come. So I was lying there thinking about how this was going to change my life, no more crutches, no more painkillers, and being unable to drive, in case I fell asleep. But the biggest thing was the thought of being able to get my own socks, shoes and pants on. I wouldn't need to ask DH, or worse still the kids anymore


And in that 12 months, I've made a complete transformation, I am no longer the person I was. With having the op and the lead up to it, I changed my life. Not only can I say that I can now put my own socks and shoes on, but I can also cut my own toenails, I have zero pain. I can go to gym and do a back to back workout, and be able to walk the next day, and not have to dose up on pain relief.

I've also made a mental and emotional change too. I've got rid of all the negative people and things that were bringing me down, out of my life. I have discovered a whole new support network, who have been there for me throughout this whole journey. With no conditions, or no games or negativity that I previously had to deal with. I was diagnosed with depression earlier this year, but through hard work, I have managed to get off meds now. And I have never felt better in my life.

I went back to work and study about 3 months ago. Went to put in a resume for some casual work, walked out with a traineeship, and a great job, that I'm loving. And will have the opportunity to go onto more study and more qualifications if I want too.


So in a short 12 months, my life has completely changed, so much for the better. I can't believe how much that has happened, and how much I've achieved. So in general life is just fan-bloody-tastic right now. I have great family, great friends and just a great life.

Am so glad, that I took that first scary step of standing up and telling people I was coping with the hip anymore and that finally after 32 years, it was time to do something about it.

Mel

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Time to turn things around

Well after a good start to the 12 WBT, I have totally fallen off the wagon, no gym, no eating right, just fallen into a heap in general. But after shopping for new clothes today, have realised that I really need to get real and get this transformation happening. Tomorrow is 12 months since I've had my hip done, so that excuse is gone, the excuse of enough time is gone, as really I have plenty. Especially with having a really supportive husband, who will pick up the pieces at home for me, while I'm at gym. So that's it, no more excuses. Have done up a whole weeks menu plan for breakfast, lunch and dinner. Going to sit down later tonight after work, and sort out a gym routine, and that's it no looking back anymore, only forward.

Have come to the realisation though, that 'challenges', diets etc just don't work for me. I need to concentrate more on just eating healthy, exercising and just enjoying life. Not allow myself to get hung up on what I'm eating next, how many calories has it got, have I had enough protein. Cos you know what, at the end of the day, it will all balance out. So I am only menu planning, to take the hard work out during the week with work and school, and trying to figure out what to have for meals. But I'm not going to get worried about the rest of it. I still want to enjoy life. And if it means having one creamy pasta dish for a lunch date, not a biggie, just eat lighter meals for the rest of the day. I just need to learn to balance it all.

So here's to the new me!!!!!!!!

Mel

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Day 1 for everything

Well have flown through the first day. Have stuck to my menu plan, even resisted Miss 5's crusts from her sandwich at lunchtime. And no emotional eating what so ever, even when the kids did push all day.

So now I'm just quietly sipping away on a protein shake, having just gotten home from RPM. 530 cals gone Max HR 181- 97% and average 161- 86%, and I'm feeling every last bit of it too. I was very close to the puking stage, I think one more sprint and that would've been the end of me. So hard trying to keep it together driving home, with the kids in the car. Last thing Master 7 and Miss 5 needed to see, is mum with her head out the window. Even worse, if the cops had driven past at all!!!

Got thinking though, just made a status update on FB, about the puking stage, and a g/f commented that she hoped I feel alright. Just struck me, that already I seem to have my fitness freak friends, who get what I meant. And on the other hand, I've got the friends, who honestly thought that I was sick. Didn't have the heart to tell her, that it's a good thing to puke after a workout, it's what you almost aim to achieve every time you step in that gym, or pull your runners on.

So day 1 is off to a fantastic start. It is even now day 1 of me not smoking anymore. I've known that I needed to stop, just one of those things I thought I would get to, once I'd sorted my food and exercise. On the way home from gym tonight though, the thought of ever having a cigarette again in my life, made me feel even worse. So what I had left in my packet has gone straight into the bin. And not another one is ever going to pass these lips of mine.

Righto must go cook some tea now, before it gets too late, and then work out what's on the menu for tomorrow.

Mel

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Kick off!!!!!!!!!!!

Well it's the eve of the big kick off to the official challenge. Feeling nervous, excited, scared, excited, not sure and did I mention excited!!! My head isn't quite in the place it was a couple of weeks ago. Feeling better now though with having the menu plans and exercise programs to work with. Feels like I will be able to cope with the diet and exercise much better. Instead of trying to work it out myself. So did a big shop, fridge is full, pantry is full and gym gear ready.

Need to sit down tonight and do my measurements, take a piccie, talking of which hope DH hasn't thrown out the paper. Not sure if I really want to know what my measurements are. It's a starting point, the starting point of my new healthy life. The old Mel will go and a more happier improved model is waiting there, ready to shine.

Had another good shift today. Buddied up in the dementia unit today. Loved it, they were all so sweet and lovely. But apparently I caught them on a good day lol. Now am thinking of heading towards psycho-geriatric nursing. I've always enjoyed working with the dementia patients.

So ready for day 1, planning on doing a RPM session tomorrow night. And just surviving the first official day of school holidays. So will be a real test tomorrow.

Mel

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Why oh why

Why can't I have just one day, that's right just one, in fact I'd be happy with just a couple of hours, of no whingeing, crying, back chatting, fighting. moaning, groaning, complaining. And that's from the kids and the hubby. It's TTOM, and I feel bloated, have a headache, cramps, feel like shit. Worked til 10 last night, working again tonight til 9, and all I want to do is just chill for the day. But no, seems my family have lost all concept of that these days. Have been eating like shit the last couple of days, water hasn't even had a look in.

Can't wait for another week until the 12WBT starts, will be able to get some menu plans in my hot little hands and stay a little more focused. That is my biggest downfall is not always making the time to plan what I'm having to eat. I would like to do it the night before, but with working til 9 and 10 the last 3 nights, it's just so hard too. Which of course is just another excuse.

I am staying positive though, I know that I can do this and I will do this. This is just another little bump in the road, that I will be able to get over. Just hard when the family doesn't seem to help much. Tired of cooking the same meals over and over and having people complain about what's dished out to them. Well they better get used to a completely new lifestyle quick smart. No more giving into individual demands, you don't like it, you cook it yourself, is going to be my new motto.

Well must go think about jumping in the shower and getting ready for work. Thank goodness it's only a 4.5 hour shift tonight, don't think I could cope with much more than that.

Mel

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Warning images may offend.

To be countable for the next 12 weeks, I've decided to do before, during and after photos. This is huge for me, literally putting it all out there. But it will make me think twice before anything goes through my lips that shouldn't. Will also post a piccie of my new boots. They just won't do up, so my goal is by the end of 12WBT I will be able to wear them.

Well for the news so far this week. It's going great. 45 mins cardio last night, Body Pump tonight. First time since the THR, felt fantastic being back again. Eating is going great guns as well. After school today, heated up some party pies, decided I was an idiot for doing it. So they went straight in the bin, and a tin of tuna and rice cakes came out instead.

So will be RPM tomorrow night, can't wait. Just love love love RPM!!!!!!!! So you could say things are just awesome at the moment. Life is really good, and about time too!

Well best post these pics and go get a green tea and curl up with my book for awhile.

Mel

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Commitments

My commitment is to stay focused on the program, not to run away when it gets all too hard and to get the newer, healthier, better model of myself out of hiding. And I’m committed to do the work to get there!


This is my commitment and promise, for not only the next 12 weeks, but for the rest of my life. Had a complete meltdown over the weekend. Best thing I did though, it has really refocused me, and made me finally realise that I need to do something, not only about my weight, but my entire life. I really am not happy with the person that I've become. I know I can be better and achieve more than what I am at the moment. So I'm shouting it to the world my commitment to Michelle, the 12 WBT, and my fellow challengers.

So started today fresh, put the last couple of days behind me, got up, dusted myself off and got on with it. Diet has been pretty good today. Did a 45 min cardio workout. Best bit, is I suffered through 10 min on the x trainer. I hate the x trainer, I try to avoid it at all costs. Not tonight, did 10 mins and felt great for doing it. So pump class tomorrow night, looking forward to doing it again. Haven't been to a class for over a year now.  Can't wait to get back again though.

Well homework is calling out to me, as well as a nice hot shower.

Mel

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